I often wonder if I am too much, too in your face, or posting too often on my social media platforms.
Sometimes, I get a comment, a “like,” a text that compliments my bravery, my words, my strength. I find myself apologizing; sometimes questioning if it was o.k. to put out into the universe. A feeling of anxiousness may then plague me- was it too much information? Did I expose my internal thoughts too strongly? Did I offend someone?
I start to question my own advocacy. I think that has been a trend my entire life; making sure others validated my decisions.
But no more.
I have spent too much time in my life worrying about what others think- but I would be lying If I sat here and told this ludicrous story that I no longer care and will never care again. That is just part of the human spirit. In so many aspects of my life, I care how I am perceived. But the fact of the matter is, despite me caring or not, I will not apologize for who I am or how much and how often I share information.
The truth is- I am unapologetic.
I have spent too long hovering my cursor over the “publish” button- deciding if I should post certain content or not. I have spent too much time thinking about what I posted on my Instagram- Is it inappropriate? Will it send the right message? What I am putting out into this totally weird space, “social media,” is just the truth and my vulnerable, real, unapologetic, me. This, I can swear by.
The irony is not lost on me. Here I am, not apologizing, but perhaps justifying? Either way, our journey is not over yet. So look out world, I have more content coming your way.